Well... I havent updated anything in years. I guess its time for me to retire. I loved it here. The forums are amusing, the people are awesome, the art... Oh the art is amazing. This page will stay up, but I will no longer be checking it. Thank you all!

So, Michelle, Kevin, Cassady and I went to the tattoo parlor so Michelle and I could get our tattoos. After about 45 minutes of discussion with each other then with the artists, we hammered out the finer details.

BUT FIRST! Background:

Michelle and I have known each other for 15 LONG years. I've moved away, she's moved away. She moved back. She moved away again. But through all this, we've stayed best friends. We've had fights (who can say they never have?) and we've made back up. She was my first drinking companion and my shoulder to cry on. So, we decided to get tattos commerating 15 years of seeing the best and worst in each other. (At 20 years, we're throwing a party.)


AND NOW! Story:


So, we were talking about tattoos and she said something to the effect of "Hey, since you'll be getting a wolf tattoo later in life and I'll be getting a horse tattoo later in life, why dont YOU get a horse tattoo and I'll get a wolf, since those are our favorite animals." (My favorite animals are wolves and hers are horses.) So, we were discussing this and I said "Well, then if we do that, how about I 'design' your wolfpaw and you 'design' my horseshoe?" So, for about 6 weeks we brainstormed in private, gathering ideas and whatnot. About a week before all this went down she told me she was wanting to add a small purple flower because her horse tattoo will have purple flowers. I thought this was yet another brilliant idea so I went with it. For a week, I tried to think of something that represented me that would look good with a wolf paw. When we got to the parlor, Michelle and I sat down, and I decided she needed blue in hers, since mine had purple. (The lightest blue the parlor has is going to be the eye color of an otherwise dark tattoo I plan to get in the future, so I wanted it to "match" my later one.) So, she was looking through the pictures of wolf paws I had and chose the one with the 2 wolves in the paw its self. Well, we discussed adding blue with the artist and he told her he would find a way to add blue. In the paw and the "fingers" of the wolf is blue shading. Her's is really pretty. She didnt know what kind of flower to put on mine, so we looked through some of their work on the walls and I found one I liked. Meanwhile, the artist was looking online for horseshoes and found some wall hangings of horseshoes with flowers on them. We modified it a bit and out came my tattoo.

I wont lie. It hurt. But it wasn't a "OH GOD! THE PAIN!" kind of hurt. It was more of a "Hey, stop that. It hurts." kind of hurt. (Mostly, it hurt the closer he got to the back of my leg and my bone, but in the middle it didnt hurt.) Sadly, we had to get them done at the same time. (We had wanted to get them seperately so we could hold each other's hands. ) But Cass held mine and Kevin held hers. All in all, it took the same amount of time and we are both incredibly pleased with the results.

(Pictures are in my gallery.)

OK. So, my 20th birthday is coming up this saturday. I plan on having a small party type thig at D & L's house. (Cass's parents place) since they will be out of town. Friday night, I'll be going out to eat with my family and (remember to ask) D & L. Saturday, I'll (hopefully) be able to go with Michelle to get our tattooes. They'll both be small, on our ankles (mine will be my inner right, you'll have to ask Michelle about hers.) Mine's gonna be a small black horseshoe. Her's is going to be a small black wolf print. I'm hoping for 1" to 1" 1/2'. Hopefully Kev and Michelle can stay the night. (At least part of it...) I've also invited Wadebert and (by association) Trent. Hopefully they'll come join in the festivities. (As I said, SMALL.)

Now, I know most people do rediculous "new years resolutions," that they dont intend to keep or for some reason aim way to high. I'm making birthday resolutions. A list of goals I hope to achieve by my 21st birthday.

♦ Get a job. (This will happen. I just REALLY don't want to reenter the workforce.)

♦ Lose at least 10lbs. 20 if I work for it. (Perhaps restart judo or swimming.)

♦ Find a hobby.

♦ Get a house/apartment/etc for Cass and me. (Possibly moving in with Derrick later this year...)

Thats my list. Short, attainable, doable. Lets hope I can do it.

I got my hair dyed and cut Monday evening and night. Let me start at the beginning...

I woke up to Josh in my room telling me my mom wanted to go to walmart, so I slowly started waking up, while talking to Josh. Then he drove me to Walmart to get my aunt's perscriptions, and while we were waiting for them, we wandered around. I was looking at hair dye (because I wanted to dye my hair a shocking red) and he goes "Fuck this, we'll go to Sally's and get it cheaper and better shit." So, I said OK, so we ran up the street to Sally's Beauty and Cosmetic Supply store. In there, he decided blue would look better than red. But since my hair's a dirty blonde, we'd have to bleach it first. So... We get a bleach kit, and some blue dye.. We run back to walmart and get the drugs and he also picks up a thing of hair wax, then come back to my house...

Then the fun begins..

So, we head to my bathroom and start bleaching my hair.. After all is said and done my hair is PLATNUM blonde. Freakin' PLATNUM. Well, I actually liked how it turned out.. But we continue on with blue. We left a long piece of blonde on my right side and my bangs blonde. The rest is blue. Then, Josh decides it needs to be c u t. What the hell, I'm feeling reckless. So, after I wash my hair out, I sit down and he proceeds to cut my wonderful hair..

Its a bit hard to explain, but I'll try my best....

Ok, well, it was about halfway down my back and before he cut it, I looked a bit like Rogue from X-men. Alright, well, he has this grand idea, to keep the one long piece, and the right side longer than the left, so he cuts the left side to about my jawline, but the right side is about at my shoulder, maybe a little higher, and it meets in an arrow looking thing in the back.. Then he styles it with the wax, I was skeptacle at first, but I like the way it turned out.. Its all grungy looking, but looks good. Its sad that he did this better than I ever could have..

Ok, so its been like.. a year since I've posted anything on here. Its rather sad. I left for a while, but I'm hoping to reopen my eyes to poetry. I miss writing. I feel as though I cant write like I used to. Lots has changed in my life. Let me recap for you.

Well, Cassady and I are still together for all of 2 years, 10 months and 24 days. Yes. I've been keeping track. So, his parents got a new house and gave us their old trailer. And I mean OLD. This thing is 20 years old. At least. And its filthy. So, Cass and I had been living there trying to clean it up and make it livable, when the hot water heater breaks. I mean, BREAKS. So, now we've got to redo parts of the floor, the wall, and whatnot. Its going to take money we dont have and time we dont want to give. So, we're house hopping from his parents house to my mom's house.

Michelle moved closer to me, which I like. She lives 5 minutes from my and Cass's house (the old one), and about 15 minutes from my mom's house, which is where I am now. I love her to death.

I'm currently unemployed and not in school. I need to get a job, but I really hate work. Of any form. I'd like to go to school to study SOMEthing, but I have no idea what I want to do if I grow up. And Cass and I need money for christmas and our house and everything else we'd like. But I really dont want to get off my ass to earn it.

My aunt (the one I got into so many fights with in previous entries) is in the hospital. She had a stroke at the end of March this year and hasnt been quite right since. So also had a heart attack a couple of years ago.. Her health is failing rapidly it seems. I feel bad for her and my grandmother, who has been in failing mental health.

And to top all that off, I think I'm trying to catch a cold or something. Damn winter weather. Well, I'll try to post some actual art and return as I used to be. I hope I can anyway, I've missed my support group on DA.

-Emily Elizebeth Baxter